It's soooooo freakin' COLD outside! I'll tell ya, going out is just not the same when the weather is cold. It's just not worth getting all dressed up and leaving my apartment, lol! Nonetheless, I'm glad that I went out tonight since my splitting migraine prevented me from doing anything entertaining last night. Other than surfing Facebook, of course.
Went out with my brother's girlfriend tonight for dinner and drinks and had a really great time! I really like her, and am very glad my brother finally found someone normal for once. We went to Carino's for dinner, and ironically enough, were waited on by a guy I used to work with in 2004 when I first started at Tech. His name is Josh. I thought I recognized him at first but wasn't sure if it was him, until he dropped the check and asked me if I had lifeguarded in Lubbock before (kind of a random question?). I said no, and that I had worked at Carino's before, and he said that's where he recognized me from. Apparently he had left to move to Houston shortly after I went back home, and had attended fire school and became an EMT. After Ike, he moved back up to Lubbock to finish his degree. He said he has another 6 months left. Anyway, the story is really irrelevent, but I just thought was neat to run into somebody from that time of my life. Such a screwed up time in my life. I was even more surprised that he actually recognized me, considering I don't look the same at 24 as I did at 19.
So after a delicious dinner and good conversation we went to Library to meet up with some of Teena's friends. I don't really care for Library that much; it's the place where Lubbock's ghetto people go to drink, surprisingly enough. That, and it's cold in the winter time because they keep the front doors open. I'm also a wimp though. Anyway, I just got home about 30 minutes ago and thought I would catch up on my journal since I've neglected it the past week or so.
I am so glad this week is over. I definitely need a chance to take a breather, get organized, and catch up on everything I haven't been able to get to since the semester started. I can't believe I'm going on my fourth week of school already. That's just crazy to me. I mean the faster, the better, but all the same, I have SO much to do! Tomorrow I'm going to make a to-do list, and a to-buy list, as well as go to Barnes and Noble and pick up a book on organization. I could really use the help. I have GOT to get my life together; I'm getting older, and much busier, and can't rely on memory alone to guide me in everything I need to accomplish. It's making me anxious as I write this! Anyway, hopefully I can get everything together this week so I can start off on a fresh page next week which will help set a good tone for the rest of the semester/yearh. I really want to be more organized, reliable, and accountable; I have to be in order to be taken more seriously on the job and get good recommendations when I graduate. Up until now, I've kind of relied on the theory that getting older means getting more on-top of things, which I've come to find isn't necessarily true.
A good example: I forgot to turn in my Module 2 exam for my Concepts class today. In my defense, it wasn't assigned in class, rather this past weekend a full week after the first day of class. If something isn't assigned in class, it's harder for me to remember to do it. Lame, I know, but it's true. Anyway, I felt like a total doofus, and decided then and there that enough is enough. I'm sure my co-workers and peers think I'm a total idiot for being so forgetful. I feel inadequate as a grad student as is; in fact, sometimes I think it would be better to wait until I'm a little older to go to grad school. But really, how am I going to be able to fit that into my schedule as I get older and have more responsibilities? There's just no way. So I'll suck it up and deal with it now, and just make the best of my situation. Man, I am pumped and ready to go! Must be the alcohol speaking.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Ignorance is Bliss
Well, today was a little better than yesterday as far as my mood is concerned. The first part of my day started out a little rough; I was definitely in the mood to self-depricate. Anyway, I snapped out of later when I realized that no one is perfect, and everyone makes mistakes. That's part of who we are as human beings, and it helps us learn who we really are. Besides, how boring would it be if I was perfect? Then nobody would like me, lol!
Anyway, one thing I need to work on is learning to accept myself for who I am. I know that's the pinnacle of every twenty-something's life, but for me it is extra hard because I haven't had the "normal" twenty-something experience. But I have accept that that's the way my life turned out, and no matter how much I wish I could go back and change things, I CAN'T. As my boyfriend's mother says "Stop looking in the rear-view mirror."
One thing that bothers me is people who say they have no regrets in life. That is the biggest load of BS I've ever heard. How can you have NO regrets in life? That's impossible. Everyone has something that they regret or wish they had done differently. People who disagree simply haven't lived enough to say otherwise. Usually it's people who are young and naive.
I've got to learn to lighten up a little, and not overanalyze things so much. The happiest people are those who can take bad experiences and pass at off as lesson learned, instead of dwelling on things they can't change.
Anyway, one thing I need to work on is learning to accept myself for who I am. I know that's the pinnacle of every twenty-something's life, but for me it is extra hard because I haven't had the "normal" twenty-something experience. But I have accept that that's the way my life turned out, and no matter how much I wish I could go back and change things, I CAN'T. As my boyfriend's mother says "Stop looking in the rear-view mirror."
One thing that bothers me is people who say they have no regrets in life. That is the biggest load of BS I've ever heard. How can you have NO regrets in life? That's impossible. Everyone has something that they regret or wish they had done differently. People who disagree simply haven't lived enough to say otherwise. Usually it's people who are young and naive.
I've got to learn to lighten up a little, and not overanalyze things so much. The happiest people are those who can take bad experiences and pass at off as lesson learned, instead of dwelling on things they can't change.
Monday, January 5, 2009
It's so cold outside...
...I can see my breath. I can't, however, feel my toes.
My roomate and I moved into our new apartment today. It's in an older apartment complex on the south side of town. It's older than the last apartment I had, but ironically enough, a lot nicer. And quieter. I am so over houses. For now, anyway.
The whole burglarly has created a lot of anxiety in me lately. I'm not sure if it was the moving process I was dreading, or the loss of my sense of security, or maybe both, but I've felt on edge for about a week now. Sometimes living so far away from home is a hassle. But, I've got a year left of school, so I'm going to make the best of it while I can. Now I would just like to work on regaining that sense of confidence and security about leaving my belongings at home that I had before. When I really think about it, of all the days of my life, which there are many, I've only had one where I've come home to my house being broken into (or at least my roomate did). I know it will take time to regain my confidence, but I'm hopeful. Hopeful, but even more cautious than I was before.
My roomate and I moved into our new apartment today. It's in an older apartment complex on the south side of town. It's older than the last apartment I had, but ironically enough, a lot nicer. And quieter. I am so over houses. For now, anyway.
The whole burglarly has created a lot of anxiety in me lately. I'm not sure if it was the moving process I was dreading, or the loss of my sense of security, or maybe both, but I've felt on edge for about a week now. Sometimes living so far away from home is a hassle. But, I've got a year left of school, so I'm going to make the best of it while I can. Now I would just like to work on regaining that sense of confidence and security about leaving my belongings at home that I had before. When I really think about it, of all the days of my life, which there are many, I've only had one where I've come home to my house being broken into (or at least my roomate did). I know it will take time to regain my confidence, but I'm hopeful. Hopeful, but even more cautious than I was before.
Friday, January 2, 2009
The Beginning of Something Good...I Hope.
Okay, so it's the beginning of a new year so I decided to start a blog. There are many things I wish to change about myself and my life this coming year, and I've set some lofty goals in hopes of achieving this change. I've always loved writing, and I'm hoping this blog will help me organize my thoughts a little better in order to meet these goals.
To start, I will tell a little bit about myself. I just turned 24 years old on December 11. I graduated from Texas Tech University in December of 2007 with a bachelor's degree in Journalism, and went back to Tech in August to obtain my master's in Hotel, Restaurant, Institutional Management, the same subject I hold a minor in.
I realize these two fields hold nothing in common, but I realized soon after graduating that writing for a living just won't pay the bills. I've worked in restaurants since I was 16 years old, and have always enjoyed the business. It takes a very special person to work in the hospitality field, so I figured I'd take advanatage of this God-given quality and put my skills to use. If all goes well, I should graduate in December of 2009. Hopefully the economy will have improved by then!
I have a boyfriend who lives in Houston where I'm from. Our three year anniversary is in January, and the bulk of that relationship has been long-distance. Some people think we are crazy for doing this, and I admit, it's a little unconventional, but it works for us. I'll go into that more later.
I was born in New Hampshire and lived there until I was 13. My dad got a job in Houston, Texas, and my family was uprooted and moved across the country to this foreign destination where I have lived (on and off when I'm not in school) ever since. I have a twin brother, as well as two younger brothers, a father, and a new step-mother. My real mother died in April of 2006 of cancer. Many of my blogs will be about her. My dad remarried in Septemeber of 2008, and my step-mother moved into my dad's house, along with her youngest daughter who is 18. She also has an older daughter who is 27, and married. Oh, and I have a cat as well as two inherited dogs.
Anyway, that is all I'm going to write for now. There's a lot more I'd like to say, but I will get to that in time. My goal is to update this blog at least once a week; we'll see if that actually happens!
One last thing: Wreck 'Em Tech
To start, I will tell a little bit about myself. I just turned 24 years old on December 11. I graduated from Texas Tech University in December of 2007 with a bachelor's degree in Journalism, and went back to Tech in August to obtain my master's in Hotel, Restaurant, Institutional Management, the same subject I hold a minor in.
I realize these two fields hold nothing in common, but I realized soon after graduating that writing for a living just won't pay the bills. I've worked in restaurants since I was 16 years old, and have always enjoyed the business. It takes a very special person to work in the hospitality field, so I figured I'd take advanatage of this God-given quality and put my skills to use. If all goes well, I should graduate in December of 2009. Hopefully the economy will have improved by then!
I have a boyfriend who lives in Houston where I'm from. Our three year anniversary is in January, and the bulk of that relationship has been long-distance. Some people think we are crazy for doing this, and I admit, it's a little unconventional, but it works for us. I'll go into that more later.
I was born in New Hampshire and lived there until I was 13. My dad got a job in Houston, Texas, and my family was uprooted and moved across the country to this foreign destination where I have lived (on and off when I'm not in school) ever since. I have a twin brother, as well as two younger brothers, a father, and a new step-mother. My real mother died in April of 2006 of cancer. Many of my blogs will be about her. My dad remarried in Septemeber of 2008, and my step-mother moved into my dad's house, along with her youngest daughter who is 18. She also has an older daughter who is 27, and married. Oh, and I have a cat as well as two inherited dogs.
Anyway, that is all I'm going to write for now. There's a lot more I'd like to say, but I will get to that in time. My goal is to update this blog at least once a week; we'll see if that actually happens!
One last thing: Wreck 'Em Tech
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