Feeling Stuck

This past week was a tough one for me.

My car started acting up on Monday, and I'm still not entirely sure what the problem is. The battery died, and to make a long story short, I ended up walking home from its final resting place, the CVS Pharmacy about a half mile from my house. I called Sam a couple of times to ask him to come get me, but he wasn't getting my calls. I figured by the time I actually got a hold of someone, and that someone finally made their way to CVS to pick me up, I could've just walked home. We live in a residential, high-traffic neighborhood, so I wasn't too worried about walking home in the dark. It was more of an inconvenience, than anything else.

Sam took the day off work Tuesday to stay home and fix my car, and so that I could take his truck to work since I don't currently have the luxury of taking time off. He replaced the battery, which was still under warranty amazingly enough. I still remember the first time he replaced it, way back in December of 2005 when we first started dating. So we were able to get a new battery at a discounted price, which was cool.

The next day, my car ran fine with no problems. Thursday, however, was a different story. I got in my car Thursday morning to go to work, and it wouldn't start. I mean the CD player stopped working, the windows wouldn't roll down, nothing! I was pretty upset, only because we can't buy a new car for me right now since we're looking for a house. Otherwise, I would've gotten rid of that car by now. The odometer read exactly 195,500, and I kept wondering if that was some kind of magic number that programmed the car to stop running.

So my brother had to pick me up and take me to my in-laws house to pick up the work truck, and from there I had to go to a paper store to pick up something for a work-related project, and then go to work. I guess the good news is I was only 45 minutes late to work, and that's not bad considering I had to go to the paper store before I got to work. But I hate being late to work, so it still sucked!

Not to mention I had an extremely busy and stressful week at work! I had a hard time staying on top of all of my projects, and made a few mistakes along the way. That is to be expected, considering how new I am, but I hate making mistakes and I take it really personally when I feel like I haven't lived up to my expectations.

To make matters worse, the house hunt really isn't going all that well. There's just nothing that's worth the money out there, and it's so frustrating. We've only been back on the hunt for about two weeks, but considering we started looking initially last year and we still haven't found anything, it's just so frustrating and I want to bang my head against a wall. If I wasn't in such dire need of a new vehicle I wouldn't mind as much, but I can't buy a new car until we buy a house, so I feel an added sense of urgency and pressure to find something fast.

All of this has really stressed me out this week, and I haven't been in the best mood this weekend. I've just felt really hopeless, and I hate feeling that way. I'm not going to give up, I know things will turn around, I just feel bummed out today. It gets hard trying to keep the faith. I'm very impatient, and it's hard for me to be patient and wait for things to fall into place. Hopefully next week will be a better week.