It occurred to me tonight that I don't have a bucket list. And I really want one.
Actually, I take that back. I did start a bucket list, but I haven't updated it since October of 2009. Since I was still in GRAD SCHOOL, for crying out loud! That is completely unacceptable.
So, I've decided that I'm going to spend the next year not only creating a bucket list, but crossing things off of it as well. Consider this an early New Year's Resolution.
Here's what I've got on my list so far:
1. Write a novel
2. Join a swim club
3. Learn to dance
4. Get my MFA in Creative Writing/Literature
5. Travel to Italy
6. Get really good at scrapbooking
7. Open my own bakery
8. Start my own event planning business
9. Make cakes like you see on TV
10. Go to pastry school
11. Run a 5k
12. Compete in a half-triatholon
13. Swim with dolphins
14. Work in the Travel & Tourism industry
15. Get married (think I got that one down!)
16. Have children
17. Live in another country for 6 months
18. Get my pHD in something. Don't ask me what, but something!
19. Read the ENTIRE Bible. And probably more than once so I can retain it!
So that's what I have so far! It's not much, but it's a start.
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Friday, November 12, 2010
Gotta love the holidays!!
I'm really excited that the holiday season is finally here!! It's everything I have in me right now to keep from decorating my entire apartment, lol! I'm gonna try to wait a few more days, but not sure if I'm going to make it. I just love this time of year! I love the cooler weather, and all of the excitement in the air, and getting to spend more time with family. There's just nothing better, in my opinion!
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Control
In my quest to find a new job, I've realized just how impatient I really am. Well, I've always known that I'm impatient, but the newest challenge in my life has just proven this.
There's so many jobs that I would like to try in my life. Like working for a CVB, or destination marketing firm. Working for a Hospitality PR firm, or restaurant development company. Become a really good bartender. Own my own event planning facility/bakery. Marketing for a university, or other non-profit. Work for winery/become a sommelier (that would be bad-a!). Travel writer/freelance writer, and lastly, become a university professor. Yeah, that's my game plan, though not necessarily in that order, lol! So many jobs, so little time!
And that's exactly my point. I am so driven, that I tend to forget that progress comes in stages, not all at once. I am such an achiever, that I get frustrated by slow progression - I want it all at once, and I want it NOW! What I need to do, is sit back and relax and learn to appreciate the opportunities that God has ALREADY placed in my life. I'm so focused on the present, that I am not living in the present, and it's soooooo important to live in the moment. I need to let God call the shots, and relinquish my need to be in control all the time. After all, He is in control, not me. I cannot achieve success without Him, so it's best to just let Him do His thing.
There's so many jobs that I would like to try in my life. Like working for a CVB, or destination marketing firm. Working for a Hospitality PR firm, or restaurant development company. Become a really good bartender. Own my own event planning facility/bakery. Marketing for a university, or other non-profit. Work for winery/become a sommelier (that would be bad-a!). Travel writer/freelance writer, and lastly, become a university professor. Yeah, that's my game plan, though not necessarily in that order, lol! So many jobs, so little time!
And that's exactly my point. I am so driven, that I tend to forget that progress comes in stages, not all at once. I am such an achiever, that I get frustrated by slow progression - I want it all at once, and I want it NOW! What I need to do, is sit back and relax and learn to appreciate the opportunities that God has ALREADY placed in my life. I'm so focused on the present, that I am not living in the present, and it's soooooo important to live in the moment. I need to let God call the shots, and relinquish my need to be in control all the time. After all, He is in control, not me. I cannot achieve success without Him, so it's best to just let Him do His thing.
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Keeping the Faith
I'm sitting here feeling frustrated. Sometimes it seems like no matter how hard I try, my dreams are never going to come true. It's so hard to get your start these days. Especially hard when you don't know anyone that can help you, that you can network with.
I feel like God is trying to point me in the right direction career/life-wise, but maybe I'm just not hearing Him. Maybe I'm just not listening well enough. I don't know, but it's so hard for me to stay motivated right now. I hate my job. I'm so tempted to just quit and take the road less traveled. Maybe that's where my problem lies, that I don't have enough confidence to take a few risks in life. I know I have what it takes to be successful - I think my track record has proven that thus far. I just don't know what the next step in life is for me.
For now, I'll just keep praying.
I feel like God is trying to point me in the right direction career/life-wise, but maybe I'm just not hearing Him. Maybe I'm just not listening well enough. I don't know, but it's so hard for me to stay motivated right now. I hate my job. I'm so tempted to just quit and take the road less traveled. Maybe that's where my problem lies, that I don't have enough confidence to take a few risks in life. I know I have what it takes to be successful - I think my track record has proven that thus far. I just don't know what the next step in life is for me.
For now, I'll just keep praying.
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Wedding update
WOW! So I just read through my old posts and realized I NEVER, not ONCE discussed my wedding news!!! How absolutely horrible of me!
Okay, so as a quick recap, Sam and I got engaged January 22 of this year, our 4 year anniversary!!! He proposed to me at Maggiano's, our favorite restaurant. Even though I knew he was going to propose, it was still totally unexpected. It was definitely one of the best nights of my life, and I'll never forget how amazingly special I felt when he got down on one knee and proposed in front of the whole lounge area. I was never one of those girls who had an idea of what my proposal would be like, but at the same time, it met all of my expectations and more!
The wedding date is set for May 7, 2011. We're having our ceremony at a winery, and our reception at a yacht club on a lake. We're both super excited about getting married! I can't believe I've finally hit an age and a point in my life where marriage is a feasible idea.
It's just so cool:)
Okay, so as a quick recap, Sam and I got engaged January 22 of this year, our 4 year anniversary!!! He proposed to me at Maggiano's, our favorite restaurant. Even though I knew he was going to propose, it was still totally unexpected. It was definitely one of the best nights of my life, and I'll never forget how amazingly special I felt when he got down on one knee and proposed in front of the whole lounge area. I was never one of those girls who had an idea of what my proposal would be like, but at the same time, it met all of my expectations and more!
The wedding date is set for May 7, 2011. We're having our ceremony at a winery, and our reception at a yacht club on a lake. We're both super excited about getting married! I can't believe I've finally hit an age and a point in my life where marriage is a feasible idea.
It's just so cool:)
So what if I'm a know-it-all? At least I'm not a fuck-up.
I'm really sick and tired of everybody telling me that I'm a know-it-all. It's not that I'm never wrong - trust me, I know when I don't know something or when I've made a mistake. I can admit when I'm wrong. But to be honest, I'm usually right, and I usually know what I'm talking about. If I don't, then I'm upfront about it. So as long as I continue to be right more often than I am wrong, I will continue to act as, what some people refer to, as a know-it-all.
And the thing that REALLY bothers me is that the people who call me a know-it-all the most are almost always the biggest fuck-ups of all!!! The irony of it is unbelievable to me. They're just pissed because they KNOW I'm right, and THEY'RE the ones who can't admit they're wrong! Gahhh it drives me nuts!!
What I do know, is that I'm assertive, opinionated, and have no problem getting in your face. ESPECIALLY when I know I'm right. And more often than not, I tell people things they don't want to hear out of concern for that person, and nothing else. I know what I say might not always be popular, or liked, or supported, but it's what I believe, and until something changes my mind otherwise, I'll continue to believe it.
It's just so frustrating to me that my friends and family can't always see past me being a know-it-all and see that all I'm really trying to do is help them and keep them from making stupid, possibly life-altering mistakes. And what hurts the most is that I try so hard to look out for my friends, and love them so much, but that this concern is not only unappreciated, but frowned upon.
But what feels the best is when I can say "I TOLD YOU SO!!!" LOL!!!
And the thing that REALLY bothers me is that the people who call me a know-it-all the most are almost always the biggest fuck-ups of all!!! The irony of it is unbelievable to me. They're just pissed because they KNOW I'm right, and THEY'RE the ones who can't admit they're wrong! Gahhh it drives me nuts!!
What I do know, is that I'm assertive, opinionated, and have no problem getting in your face. ESPECIALLY when I know I'm right. And more often than not, I tell people things they don't want to hear out of concern for that person, and nothing else. I know what I say might not always be popular, or liked, or supported, but it's what I believe, and until something changes my mind otherwise, I'll continue to believe it.
It's just so frustrating to me that my friends and family can't always see past me being a know-it-all and see that all I'm really trying to do is help them and keep them from making stupid, possibly life-altering mistakes. And what hurts the most is that I try so hard to look out for my friends, and love them so much, but that this concern is not only unappreciated, but frowned upon.
But what feels the best is when I can say "I TOLD YOU SO!!!" LOL!!!
Saturday, May 15, 2010
The Baby Epidemic
Ah, there's nothing that quite defines the twenty-something experience quite like the baby/marriage epidemic that seems to spread like wildfire. It's true what they say (whoever "they" is), it comes out of nowhere. At 20 years old, you're enjoying the good life: going out and partying with your friends, staying up late for no reason, dating, going to school, working, still living at home. Three or four years later, everyone in your life suddenly starts getting engaged/married/ and popping out kids. It's all so overwhelming sometimes.
I guess I kind of fall into that category seeing as how I'm engaged and all, but more than ever, I am feeling the pressure to "get it on" and start having kids, and boy does it SUCK! Now don't get me wrong - I love kids. Kids are great. They're cute, and little, and fun to play with, and just so terrifically innocent. I do want kids...one day. But not right now. Or tomorrow. Or three months from now. Probably not even a year from now. To be honest, I don't know when I will feel like having kids, but I know that I will know when the time is right for me.
In the meantime, there is the pressure to have them and figuring out how to deal with that pressure.
Things seem to have compounded within the last few months since my nephew was born. Now it's like all eyes are on me, and I'm just trying to hide. I know in my head that I'm not ready. I'm way too selfish for kids. I'm terrified of losing my freedom/sense of self. I'm terrified of getting fat and then unable to get back in shape. Perhaps this is immature of me, but that just proves how un-ready I really am. I swear, if one more person asks me when I'm having babies I'm going to punch that unsuspecting person in the face. I mean how rude is it to put that kind of pressure on someone? I know I'm 25, but shit, I'm not ancient. I still have plenty of time. My biological clock hasn't even started ticking yet, or if it has, I sure can't hear it.
I'm sure a lot of it is just me putting pressure on myself. But I keep reminding myself that this isn't a race. It's not a competition to see how quickly I can get knocked up. Babies will come soon enough, I want to enjoy the last few years being child-free while I can. And maybe squeeze a little traveling in while I can, too.
But for now, I just wish everyone would shutup about it and back off a little bit, geesh.
I guess I kind of fall into that category seeing as how I'm engaged and all, but more than ever, I am feeling the pressure to "get it on" and start having kids, and boy does it SUCK! Now don't get me wrong - I love kids. Kids are great. They're cute, and little, and fun to play with, and just so terrifically innocent. I do want kids...one day. But not right now. Or tomorrow. Or three months from now. Probably not even a year from now. To be honest, I don't know when I will feel like having kids, but I know that I will know when the time is right for me.
In the meantime, there is the pressure to have them and figuring out how to deal with that pressure.
Things seem to have compounded within the last few months since my nephew was born. Now it's like all eyes are on me, and I'm just trying to hide. I know in my head that I'm not ready. I'm way too selfish for kids. I'm terrified of losing my freedom/sense of self. I'm terrified of getting fat and then unable to get back in shape. Perhaps this is immature of me, but that just proves how un-ready I really am. I swear, if one more person asks me when I'm having babies I'm going to punch that unsuspecting person in the face. I mean how rude is it to put that kind of pressure on someone? I know I'm 25, but shit, I'm not ancient. I still have plenty of time. My biological clock hasn't even started ticking yet, or if it has, I sure can't hear it.
I'm sure a lot of it is just me putting pressure on myself. But I keep reminding myself that this isn't a race. It's not a competition to see how quickly I can get knocked up. Babies will come soon enough, I want to enjoy the last few years being child-free while I can. And maybe squeeze a little traveling in while I can, too.
But for now, I just wish everyone would shutup about it and back off a little bit, geesh.
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