Twenty Something And Loathing It

All of this wedding planning stress is really coming to a head.

I feel like every time I turn around there is something else I have to think about or something else to pay for. It's crazy. I feel bad saying this, but I really can't wait 'til it's all over! I know I'll be excited and happy on my big day, but I will feel so relieved when it's all over and I can finally refocus my attention on other things. I now understand why people (or at least those who have money) hire wedding coordinators! If I had the money I would've. Or if I wasn't working full-time then it wouldn't be such an issue.

I know every bride feels this way, but I just want everything to be perfect. But without spending a gazillion dollars that I don't have. And I find myself constantly torn between wanting to spend a little extra money to make it unique and memorable, and penny pinching because I know that it's silly to spend so much money on one day. It's not about the tables, and the flowers, and the food, and the cake - it's about having your family and closest friends witness the love between you and the one you've chosen to spend the rest of your life with. THAT is what is important. And I don't understand why people get so caught up in all of these silly little traditions that really are meaningless. But that's another topic for another day.

If I can just keep my sanity for the next 62 days, I'll be thrilled!